Thursday, September 30, 2010

Getting Through

So, in deciding to restart the blog with this adventure apart, I've had some thoughts/revelations. They are:

First, I thought that I'd keep it all sunshine and roses here. Stay positive. Be up! But then I thought that's not really real. I know there are going to be days that suck. I'd rather just be honest. That's not brutally honest, mind you. and real but not raw. There will be things that I think and feel and do that don't make it to the pages of this blog. But I won't blow a lot of smoke either.

Second, or is that secondly? Is it secondly if it isn't firstly? Mary? Anyway, my next note is that I've thought of something fun and I hope SB will like it. I'm taking a photo with my phone each day and emailing it to him. Not a giant long message or list of questions or comments or never-ending commentary about my day at work. Just a photo. Maybe with a clever name or caption or explanation. I hope he likes it.

Finally, I've come to the realization that as hard as the past day has been, it isn't even because I miss him. He hasn't even been gone that long. But that year looming ahead of me is overwhelming. I hope that once a few weeks have gone by and it is no longer a year I should be good to go!

Watch out...here comes that sunshine!

3 comments:

Mabel said...

Hee...I love that you care about proper grammar; not many people seem to anymore. Today's lesson: Both second and secondly are technically correct, but second is preferred.

But more importantly, nice post. You can't pretend that every day is sunshine and roses just to keep your readers comfortable. We can handle the truth ;-)

Amy J. said...

LOVE the photo-a-day idea!
Oh, and you can try this: http://365project.org/ so you can also have a whole calendar of your daily pictures by the end of the year!

(also would be glad to read your writing of the nitty gritty, as well as the happy... its all real life, man.)

Hugs to you!!

Heather and Stephen said...

Thanks, Amy! I knew it was an actual "project", my friend Tammi (an actual photographer!) is doing it. I look at he pictures about once a week. But it never occurred to me to even look at the website.
And I'm a little bit afraid of the first "nitty gritty". I imagine it will make my readers and myself a little bit uncomfortable. But much like the first post departure good cry, it will have to be done.